After Whole Day's busy life; which I try with all my desperation to live as unnoticeably as possible, I have some moments which I can live for myself. I grabbed my coat and set out to explore the rain, Persian Gulf and my Life; My Comfort remains; the bits of embodiment of my past; my woes; my You... Cold tantalizing breeze is enchanting and I am walking on the long road of Ajman with my silent thoughts and my precious guilt. I always wanted this moment, when I walk along to the belief that there is someone mighty than me... someone who has the power to take me in his cradle and make me forget myself. The beauty and serenity of gulf captured my attention the moment I laid down my eyes upon her and I knew that instant, that my inspiration is driven wild by her.

But now that I am sitting on a bench near her; I am thinking about you. And perhaps, I realized that the moments I steal from life for myself are the thoughts of you. How strange is the idea, that I have none my own... not even my special moments, and while thinking about you I am smiling there is some connection of you with happiness or perhaps that was the only happiness of mine and now it is spread all across me like white sand. Sitting here... thinking about you is the best feeling I ever have in my life, almost the way we shared our presence to each other or perhaps even more..

It's amazing how my precious guilt is more liberating than overwhelming. There was a fear that I may have cried at this moment but all this time I was expecting that you will silently come behind me, put your hand on my shoulder and sit with me beside the bench and we don’t utter a single word; you, me and the sea... This is life.

It's almost around 4:00 am, the time when I always happen to wakeup and see the line around your jaw. Just because I never happened to see it while you were awake. It is my secret..

There came the sound of my song; 'voyage of faith'.. Which you dedicated me once and i started looking the place I had your mark... But it is gone. It is almost a year since we met and then parted and your birthday is approaching; I wont even be anywhere near you. I will celebrate your birthday in my own way I know.. Standing still, coming every night of my stay near to my Gulf...